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[Vax didn't ask for anecdotes on the choking, so Kira doesn't feel a pressing need for the story behind it--if he even assumes there is one. Honest communication is hard enough sometimes without fraught explanations.]

[Not that he wouldn't hear them out; part of his job had always been to just listen.]

Listen, I will talk up all kinds of shit in the bedroom, but most of it's just talk unless you ask for it. [Recalling another part of that talk, he decides to clarify.] Same for any uh, possessiveness that came through? I just thought that was part of the play, I won't do it again. I think we were both going kind of fast.

Was I that obvious? [He sounds a little bashful about it.] It's just, um...you know, I really miss my girlfriend a lot, so it's sort of hard to get fully on board with 'you're mine' when I uh...well, I'll just say it, when I wish it was her. Not that I'm not enjoying myself with other people? But, you know. It's a bit of fun versus the woman I'm in love with, you know?

[He got a little...frantic, somewhere in the middle of that, trying not to get overwhelmed with how much he misses Keyleth, but he's trying to focus on balancing that with not hurting Kira's feelings. He seems like the type who will understand, who won't be offended at the idea that fucking doesn't mean true love and that having a lot of fun together doesn't make either of them the other's number one.]

[At least he only has to hear people pitching in and out of their feelings over phones and--whatever the tomes are. It doesn't make it any less apparent, but he can keep it separate from his own feelings, keep a level head for them.]

Hey. [His tone, not particularly rough during the conversation, still softens from their rather light back-and-forth.] This place, it's got its distractions, it does its best to make us forget that we didn't ask to be here. I'm sorry there's so much missing from it, and that I did anything to bring that up.

I know what this is, you don't have to worry about that. And if you get a chance to ride off into the sunset with her, I'll be glad for you.

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[There's just silence on the other end for a little bit. Vax is suddenly struggling to control his feelings. It's the classic thing, really; someone expressing some sympathy for you is all it takes to break the dam. If he's listening real close, Kira might hear some too-measured breaths, a couple of quiet sniffs.]

[Like before, though, he controls it, and takes a calming breath before he speaks.] Thanks.

I think it's your turn, yeah? We're back to likes. [Translation: distract me, please.]

[He hears the sniffs as much as he hears the plea to back off from the subject. It isn't anything he'd admit but--he understands that too. Breaking when you expect the stick instead of the carrot, or don't expect anything at all. Doing anything to recover from that moment.]

You let me know if you want to play this game in person, I don't think I've been to your side of the castle yet.

[An obvious enough offer, but he's not going to push it. The last thing he'd want himself is an audience.]

Maybe a bit of a story this time too. I had a guy once, we fucked for hours. He'd finish himself off then plug me up while he recovered, I thought I was going to die. If we can find a toy for that, I'd love to try it out on you.

Mm, that sounds nice. I've used some toys and liked it a lot. Being plugged up so I stay open to be fucked again sounds...intriguing. Get me all slutty and loose.

[There are some rustling sounds as Vax shifts positions, laying down on his bed to get comfortable for this.] I like pain. Both receiving and giving, if you're into that. [With an audible grin:] I can get pretty creative.

[Pain's a difficult thing to classify, when he can feel the pleasure it brings just as much. Not wanting to get into that, Kira does have other reservations.] It's been a long time since I did more than one-offs, so, that never really happened with...trust established.

[He did at least already establish that he wasn't going to punch Vax in the face, so maybe there's a conversation to be had.] We could try some things out. There are some things I do like.

I don't have any issue pulling hair, biting or being bitten. And I'm a fan of dragging the finish off until it hurts. [There's a pause, trying to put into words where the line might be.] I don't like violence, is the thing.

Okay, that makes sense. We don't have to do any of the harder stuff. We've established that spanking is okay, yeah? What about hitting other areas or hitting with tools? [It's good to have this mapped out a little more closely, so Vax knows what he can ask for, in either direction.]

Spanking's good, face is still on the table if you want to be slapped. I'm not exactly a concussion-inducing powerhouse. [The pattern will eventually evolve that his concern is very much Vax's safety. Kira takes the trust it puts on him very seriously, and even if it's something Vax really wants, there are edges Kira doesn't want to push.]

You mean like, riding crops and shit? I can get into it. It feels more like a sex thing with a prop.

[The subject of receiving is the harder part, requiring more honesty than he's used to laying out for people.] For me, the thing is--nobody ever did it for fun. Or asked. I can't tell you right now if I enjoy it. [Or if he'd just enjoyed it vicariously from whatever sadistic shithead he'd gone home with that night.]

[There's a pang of sympathy in Vax's chest. That makes it a little easier, honestly, next time he might have to tell one of his own stories. Knowing they've both been there.]

Sounds like we've got more in common than we thought. We can explore it, if you're interested. If not, that's fine too. I'm more than happy letting you fuck me up to your heart's content. [He's grinning again for that last bit, trying to show that he's not upset or put off.]

[As little time as they've really spent together, Kira's only had good feelings about it. It got heavy, but that doesn't mean it strayed from playing, that they weren't trying to take care of each other in their own ways. He smiles back: even if he doesn't trust people to get very close, he thinks he definitely trusts Vax's attitude, his practices around the act.]

I'm really glad you called. I feel a lot better knowing how easy it is to just have a conversation about--fucking you up. [The edge of the smile twists, a bit.] And knowing you do return the favor, when asked.

Most definitely. I've got some favorites that aren't violent but will definitely figure out whether you like pain or not.

So, I think that counted as both a like and a limit, so we're back to likes, I think. You probably picked this up already, but I like how much you talk. I'll do my best to return the favor, but if you ever really want to get me worked up from nothing, tell me what you're gonna do to me.

[The smile holds, edging on a smirk.] I like how much I talk too. [Just a bit of a cocky shit, fond of his own voice.] Figure it makes up for how quiet I am otherwise. Which--don't ever feel like you should be. I like to hear when I'm doing things right. Honestly, if you're enjoying it there's a good chance I will too, whatever it is.

Good to know. Same, more or less. No fun if it's not fun for both.

I'm running a bit low on limits. Give me one of yours and maybe it'll jog something, eh?

[A lot of things feel covered, or like odd extremes that don't really apply. He's not exactly worried Vax is going to prey on stereotypes that probably don't exist in his world or take a dump on him without asking.]

If you tickle me I will never speak to you again, even if you were the last person left to fuck in this entire city.

[Vax laughs at that.] Noted. I'm not terribly ticklish, but I'll try to keep it in mind.

I've given you my ultimate weakness, you'd better not exploit it.

[He's joking. Might be joking.]

Anything you like that usually gets a no?

Like, things most people aren't down for? Uh...[He's suddenly glad for audio-only, cause it means Kira can't see him blush.] One or two things, I suppose.

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Oh, don't get shy on me now. Even if I don't want to do them, I won't hold them against you.

Well...I've heard of a thing where your whole hand goes...you know.

[Kira's laugh is soft and smothered, and not unkind.] Fisting? It's a lot of work--I mean it's basically prep that doesn't stop until your hand's up there, but. We don't exactly have scheduled activities.

We could give it a try.

Yeah? [He sounds very intrigued, and kind of excited.]

...I'm not sure why I'm surprised that that's a real thing. I mean, it makes sense. But somehow I sort of thought it was a myth.

[Honestly, he's just glad it was something he's willing to try, and not a conversation killer.] Where I'm from, you can get toys and instructional videos and articles on how to do it. It's not common, but it's a thing people do.

Any other myths you've been wondering about?

A few, maybe. But most of them would require a third party, so we'll get into those another time.

Fair enough, I think we're on the same page with those, so just let me know if you ever have someone in mind.

There's a lot I'm willing to do or try, but some of my favorites are pretty tame, compared to what I've seen. You might have noticed I like to drag things out a bit, but I don't mind saving that for a second or third round.

I like to be on the receiving end of it too. Not getting to come for awhile, or at all.