[It's lucky he's in his room when the little tome begins to chime: he still hasn't taken to carrying it with him. The voice is familiar, and nothing in the tone gives him a better clue as to what that syllable means.]
[Of the things that can follow a cryptic hey, this is probably the more innocuous, and Kira's glad he answered. Debriefing after that kind of sex can be important, especially with strangers.]
If you weren't counting it as good sex, I'd be the one apologizing. I didn't have to go everywhere you wanted to that soon, but--I don't really mind that kind of heavy if we're on the same page.
[Which he thinks they were, even if his gifts had more to do with that than actual communication.]
Yeah? [Vax sounds...mildly intrigued. Like he just decided this is definitely worth exploring.] I'll be trying to take it a little slower next time, for the record. Just...ease in a little more. But we can get heavy again.
[While it's not his usual habit, he's quickly understanding that the castle and city are not going to support the kind of anonymous sex he was having across Manhattan, and--there's no disappointment, or hesitation behind the answer.]
Don't expect me to do shit like punch you in the face, and we can pretty much do whatever you want. Shit, we can make out like teenagers in semi-public places if that's all you want, it was--fun, honestly.
[That makes him laugh.] I will definitely not ask you to punch me in the face. A little light slapping, maybe. But I'll never expect you to do something you're not comfortable with.
[Lord knows Vax has his hard limits when he's in charge.]
I have two hands and plenty of time, I think I've got you covered.
[A contemplative pause; the sound of a body moving over and settling in sheets.] I can't decide if I should be responsible and ask more about limits, or have some fun asking you to describe what you really like.
I think if we do it that way, I won't get any of the fun stories from you. What's something you like, other than having your hair pulled and your ass reamed.
Hmm. [Vax likes a lot of things. It takes a second to think of one pertinent enough to bring up.] I like sucking cock. Especially if you just pull me down and fuck my throat. And don't let me touch myself, cause it's not about me.
Sharing is a really hot fantasy, but I don't want to actually do it unless with someone we both know really well. Same for watching. [He won't bring up the reason unless pressed.]
[Vax didn't ask for anecdotes on the choking, so Kira doesn't feel a pressing need for the story behind it--if he even assumes there is one. Honest communication is hard enough sometimes without fraught explanations.]
[Not that he wouldn't hear them out; part of his job had always been to just listen.]
Listen, I will talk up all kinds of shit in the bedroom, but most of it's just talk unless you ask for it. [Recalling another part of that talk, he decides to clarify.] Same for any uh, possessiveness that came through? I just thought that was part of the play, I won't do it again. I think we were both going kind of fast.
Was I that obvious? [He sounds a little bashful about it.] It's just, um...you know, I really miss my girlfriend a lot, so it's sort of hard to get fully on board with 'you're mine' when I uh...well, I'll just say it, when I wish it was her. Not that I'm not enjoying myself with other people? But, you know. It's a bit of fun versus the woman I'm in love with, you know?
[He got a little...frantic, somewhere in the middle of that, trying not to get overwhelmed with how much he misses Keyleth, but he's trying to focus on balancing that with not hurting Kira's feelings. He seems like the type who will understand, who won't be offended at the idea that fucking doesn't mean true love and that having a lot of fun together doesn't make either of them the other's number one.]
[At least he only has to hear people pitching in and out of their feelings over phones and--whatever the tomes are. It doesn't make it any less apparent, but he can keep it separate from his own feelings, keep a level head for them.]
Hey. [His tone, not particularly rough during the conversation, still softens from their rather light back-and-forth.] This place, it's got its distractions, it does its best to make us forget that we didn't ask to be here. I'm sorry there's so much missing from it, and that I did anything to bring that up.
I know what this is, you don't have to worry about that. And if you get a chance to ride off into the sunset with her, I'll be glad for you.
[There's just silence on the other end for a little bit. Vax is suddenly struggling to control his feelings. It's the classic thing, really; someone expressing some sympathy for you is all it takes to break the dam. If he's listening real close, Kira might hear some too-measured breaths, a couple of quiet sniffs.]
[Like before, though, he controls it, and takes a calming breath before he speaks.] Thanks.
I think it's your turn, yeah? We're back to likes. [Translation: distract me, please.]
[He hears the sniffs as much as he hears the plea to back off from the subject. It isn't anything he'd admit but--he understands that too. Breaking when you expect the stick instead of the carrot, or don't expect anything at all. Doing anything to recover from that moment.]
You let me know if you want to play this game in person, I don't think I've been to your side of the castle yet.
[An obvious enough offer, but he's not going to push it. The last thing he'd want himself is an audience.]
Maybe a bit of a story this time too. I had a guy once, we fucked for hours. He'd finish himself off then plug me up while he recovered, I thought I was going to die. If we can find a toy for that, I'd love to try it out on you.
Mm, that sounds nice. I've used some toys and liked it a lot. Being plugged up so I stay open to be fucked again sounds...intriguing. Get me all slutty and loose.
[There are some rustling sounds as Vax shifts positions, laying down on his bed to get comfortable for this.] I like pain. Both receiving and giving, if you're into that. [With an audible grin:] I can get pretty creative.
[Pain's a difficult thing to classify, when he can feel the pleasure it brings just as much. Not wanting to get into that, Kira does have other reservations.] It's been a long time since I did more than one-offs, so, that never really happened with...trust established.
[He did at least already establish that he wasn't going to punch Vax in the face, so maybe there's a conversation to be had.] We could try some things out. There are some things I do like.
I don't have any issue pulling hair, biting or being bitten. And I'm a fan of dragging the finish off until it hurts. [There's a pause, trying to put into words where the line might be.] I don't like violence, is the thing.
Okay, that makes sense. We don't have to do any of the harder stuff. We've established that spanking is okay, yeah? What about hitting other areas or hitting with tools? [It's good to have this mapped out a little more closely, so Vax knows what he can ask for, in either direction.]
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Uh, hey yourself.
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Not sure why I'm apologizing for really good sex, but you know. [With a bit of a laugh:] I'm really not normally like that.
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If you weren't counting it as good sex, I'd be the one apologizing. I didn't have to go everywhere you wanted to that soon, but--I don't really mind that kind of heavy if we're on the same page.
[Which he thinks they were, even if his gifts had more to do with that than actual communication.]
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Don't expect me to do shit like punch you in the face, and we can pretty much do whatever you want. Shit, we can make out like teenagers in semi-public places if that's all you want, it was--fun, honestly.
You really don't ever have to worry about me.
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[Lord knows Vax has his hard limits when he's in charge.]
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Is it your face or your ass you're wanting slapped. [He asks it with a soft snort, hoping to keep the light mood.] I can handle either.
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[A contemplative pause; the sound of a body moving over and settling in sheets.] I can't decide if I should be responsible and ask more about limits, or have some fun asking you to describe what you really like.
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You know, my only disappointment about last time was that I didn't get to eat you out. Maybe you should make that up to me instead.
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Do I go for a like or a limit now?
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I think if we do it that way, I won't get any of the fun stories from you. What's something you like, other than having your hair pulled and your ass reamed.
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[Which, in a way, brings up a hard limit for the game.] I won't choke you out, though. Too much can go wrong with that.
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Sharing is a really hot fantasy, but I don't want to actually do it unless with someone we both know really well. Same for watching. [He won't bring up the reason unless pressed.]
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[Not that he wouldn't hear them out; part of his job had always been to just listen.]
Listen, I will talk up all kinds of shit in the bedroom, but most of it's just talk unless you ask for it. [Recalling another part of that talk, he decides to clarify.] Same for any uh, possessiveness that came through? I just thought that was part of the play, I won't do it again. I think we were both going kind of fast.
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[He got a little...frantic, somewhere in the middle of that, trying not to get overwhelmed with how much he misses Keyleth, but he's trying to focus on balancing that with not hurting Kira's feelings. He seems like the type who will understand, who won't be offended at the idea that fucking doesn't mean true love and that having a lot of fun together doesn't make either of them the other's number one.]
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Hey. [His tone, not particularly rough during the conversation, still softens from their rather light back-and-forth.] This place, it's got its distractions, it does its best to make us forget that we didn't ask to be here. I'm sorry there's so much missing from it, and that I did anything to bring that up.
I know what this is, you don't have to worry about that. And if you get a chance to ride off into the sunset with her, I'll be glad for you.
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[Like before, though, he controls it, and takes a calming breath before he speaks.] Thanks.
I think it's your turn, yeah? We're back to likes. [Translation: distract me, please.]
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You let me know if you want to play this game in person, I don't think I've been to your side of the castle yet.
[An obvious enough offer, but he's not going to push it. The last thing he'd want himself is an audience.]
Maybe a bit of a story this time too. I had a guy once, we fucked for hours. He'd finish himself off then plug me up while he recovered, I thought I was going to die. If we can find a toy for that, I'd love to try it out on you.
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[There are some rustling sounds as Vax shifts positions, laying down on his bed to get comfortable for this.] I like pain. Both receiving and giving, if you're into that. [With an audible grin:] I can get pretty creative.
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[He did at least already establish that he wasn't going to punch Vax in the face, so maybe there's a conversation to be had.] We could try some things out. There are some things I do like.
I don't have any issue pulling hair, biting or being bitten. And I'm a fan of dragging the finish off until it hurts. [There's a pause, trying to put into words where the line might be.] I don't like violence, is the thing.
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